Involuntary Suicide
My short straw drawn from life runs empty when sipped
Born in a morgue would be more humane then this
Pretentious by no means I exist through fear
A cult controlled colony conformed by tears
Smeared by gossip I’ll let you peer through the hole
Of a portal in poor judgment and control
My ancestor’s choice now commands my deeds
As I stand in heat before the hand that feeds
We bleed entranced beneath a chant of thieves
Glory to the night father from webs he weaves
I’m a third generation child of fire
I only bend to my father’s desires
Lighters supply faith in our stain glass skies
As that’s all we have left from this insane past time
One domain, one shrine, one shred of virtue left
One purpose, two lives on a bed of hurtful sex
Non-violent acts of passion behind his back
My father would kill if he followed my tracks
For months this outsider has shown lust in love
His protection’s potent so I trust his touch
I’m hushed at the fact my periods late
Pain engraved through my eyes in the mirror I face
Terror displayed with the decision I made
As my father carves with incisions from blades
My man fall’s victim as I listen to prayers
Diced into quarter from the slaughter we share
Drinking his blood and then eating off his flesh
My heart’s beating for two, dry reaching each breath
Glory to the father! So glory be his name
We the loyal disciples, dance round the flame
Controlled and submissive! I yield to the flock
More secrets concealed mind numb with shock
Beneath my robes, bumps explode, sin exposed
Skin thick as gold but my wills set to blow
Disclose and die or try to deny the lie
We reach for the sky. Await our time to fly
Jesus returns when we cleanse our soul
The eclipse of the sun, salvation our goal
Greeted at Satan’s Flaming gates of hell
Proclaiming fate awaits pungent sulphur smell
Deceiving father hastened my final test
Receiving the truth ensured my fatal quest
Prayers from the book, praise to father night
Pain filled with tears the birth in moon light,
Father declares the prophecy comes to fusion
Gatherers cheer at his final decision
To resurrect our lord, I must expire my chance
In survival, entranced by these tired demands
Wired, frightened ciphering blood from my hands
Crying with each bite forced to tongue her organs
As the whip swung my hips are numb with slit gums
Bones poking, fetus choking when I pierce lung
My internals fall, drowning in an inferno floor
Burning walls, hurt as my father’s working pawn
Murder or Suicide, it's hard to choose
When is your child no longer apart of you
My pride is shaking inside my spine can’t take it
Facing my fetus, waiting for god to change me
I slither flesh through lips now shame evades me
A shallow victory, my daughter no more
Her remains, my remains, mesh together as before
Born in a morgue would be more humane then this
Pretentious by no means I exist through fear
A cult controlled colony conformed by tears
Smeared by gossip I’ll let you peer through the hole
Of a portal in poor judgment and control
My ancestor’s choice now commands my deeds
As I stand in heat before the hand that feeds
We bleed entranced beneath a chant of thieves
Glory to the night father from webs he weaves
I’m a third generation child of fire
I only bend to my father’s desires
Lighters supply faith in our stain glass skies
As that’s all we have left from this insane past time
One domain, one shrine, one shred of virtue left
One purpose, two lives on a bed of hurtful sex
Non-violent acts of passion behind his back
My father would kill if he followed my tracks
For months this outsider has shown lust in love
His protection’s potent so I trust his touch
I’m hushed at the fact my periods late
Pain engraved through my eyes in the mirror I face
Terror displayed with the decision I made
As my father carves with incisions from blades
My man fall’s victim as I listen to prayers
Diced into quarter from the slaughter we share
Drinking his blood and then eating off his flesh
My heart’s beating for two, dry reaching each breath
Glory to the father! So glory be his name
We the loyal disciples, dance round the flame
Controlled and submissive! I yield to the flock
More secrets concealed mind numb with shock
Beneath my robes, bumps explode, sin exposed
Skin thick as gold but my wills set to blow
Disclose and die or try to deny the lie
We reach for the sky. Await our time to fly
Jesus returns when we cleanse our soul
The eclipse of the sun, salvation our goal
Greeted at Satan’s Flaming gates of hell
Proclaiming fate awaits pungent sulphur smell
Deceiving father hastened my final test
Receiving the truth ensured my fatal quest
Prayers from the book, praise to father night
Pain filled with tears the birth in moon light,
Father declares the prophecy comes to fusion
Gatherers cheer at his final decision
To resurrect our lord, I must expire my chance
In survival, entranced by these tired demands
Wired, frightened ciphering blood from my hands
Crying with each bite forced to tongue her organs
As the whip swung my hips are numb with slit gums
Bones poking, fetus choking when I pierce lung
My internals fall, drowning in an inferno floor
Burning walls, hurt as my father’s working pawn
Murder or Suicide, it's hard to choose
When is your child no longer apart of you
My pride is shaking inside my spine can’t take it
Facing my fetus, waiting for god to change me
I slither flesh through lips now shame evades me
A shallow victory, my daughter no more
Her remains, my remains, mesh together as before
Many thanks to my son for the great time we had working on this together, xox